Chapter 12 – 4 – Seeking and Finding
The ego is certain that love is dangerous, and this is always its central
teaching. It never puts it this way; on the contrary, everyone who believes
that the ego is salvation seems to be intensely engaged in the search for
love. Yet the ego, though encouraging the search for love very actively,
makes one proviso; do not find it. Its dictates, then, can be summed up
simply as: “Seek and do not find. “This is the one promise the ego holds out
to you, and the one promise it will keep. For the ego pursues its goal with
fanatic insistence, and its judgment, though severely impaired, is
completely consistent.
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The search the ego undertakes is therefore bound to be defeated. And since
it also teaches that it is your identification, its guidance leads you to a
journey which must end in perceived self-defeat. For the ego cannot love,
and in its frantic search for love it is seeking what it is afraid to find. The
search is inevitable because the ego is part of your mind, and because of its
source the ego is not wholly split off, or it could not be believed at all. For it
is your mind that believes in it and gives existence to it. Yet it is also your
mind that has the power to deny the ego’s existence, and you will surely do
so when you realize exactly what the journey is on which the ego sets you.
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It is surely obvious that no one wants to find what would utterly defeat him.
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Being unable to love, the ego would be totally inadequate in love’s
presence, for it could not respond at all. Then, you would have to abandon
the ego’s guidance, for it would be quite apparent that it had not taught you
the response you need. The ego will therefore distort love, and teach you
that love really calls forth the responses the ego can teach. Follow its
teaching, then, and you will search for love, but will not recognize it.
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Do you realize that the ego must set you on a journey which cannot but lead
to a sense of futility and depression? To seek and not to find is hardly
joyous. Is this the promise you would keep? The Holy Spirit offers you
another promise, and one that will lead to joy. For his promise is always,
“Seek and you will find,” and under his guidance you cannot be defeated.
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His is the journey to accomplishment, and the goal he sets before you he
will give you. For he will never deceive God’s Son whom he loves with the
Love of the Father.
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You will undertake a journey because you are not at home in this world.
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And you will search for your home whether you realize where it is or not. If
you believe it is outside you the search will be futile, for you will be
seeking it where it is not. You do not remember how to look within for you
do not believe your home is there. Yet the Holy Spirit remembers it for you,
and he will guide you to your home because that is his mission. As he
fulfills his mission he will teach you yours, for your mission is the same as
his. By guiding your brothers home you are but following him.
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Behold the Guide your Father gave you, that you might learn you have
eternal life. For death is not your Father’s Will nor yours, and whatever is
true is the Will of the Father. You pay no price for life for that was given
you, but you do pay a price for death, and a very heavy one. If death is your
treasure, you will sell everything else to purchase it. And you will believe
that you have purchased it, because you have sold everything else. Yet you
cannot sell the Kingdom of Heaven. Your inheritance can neither be bought
nor sold. There can be no disinherited parts of the Sonship, for God is whole
and all his extensions are like him.
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The Atonement is not the price of your wholeness, but it is the price of your
awareness of your wholeness. For what you chose to “sell” had to be kept
for you, since you could not “buy” it back. Yet you must invest in it, not
with money but with spirit. For spirit is will, and will is the “price” of the
Kingdom. Your inheritance awaits only the recognition that you have been
redeemed. The Holy Spirit guides you into life eternal, but you must
relinquish your investment in death, or you will not see life though it is all
around you.
The ego is certain that love is dangerous, and this is always its central
teaching. It never puts it this way; on the contrary, everyone who believes
that the ego is salvation seems to be intensely engaged in the search for
love. Yet the ego, though encouraging the search for love very actively,
makes one proviso; do not find it. Its dictates, then, can be summed up
simply as: “Seek and do not find. “This is the one promise the ego holds out
to you, and the one promise it will keep. For the ego pursues its goal with
fanatic insistence, and its judgment, though severely impaired, is
completely consistent.
Â
The search the ego undertakes is therefore bound to be defeated. And since
it also teaches that it is your identification, its guidance leads you to a
journey which must end in perceived self-defeat. For the ego cannot love,
and in its frantic search for love it is seeking what it is afraid to find. The
search is inevitable because the ego is part of your mind, and because of its
source the ego is not wholly split off, or it could not be believed at all. For it
is your mind that believes in it and gives existence to it. Yet it is also your
mind that has the power to deny the ego’s existence, and you will surely do
so when you realize exactly what the journey is on which the ego sets you.
Â
It is surely obvious that no one wants to find what would utterly defeat him.
Â
Being unable to love, the ego would be totally inadequate in love’s
presence, for it could not respond at all. Then, you would have to abandon
the ego’s guidance, for it would be quite apparent that it had not taught you
the response you need. The ego will therefore distort love, and teach you
that love really calls forth the responses the ego can teach. Follow its
teaching, then, and you will search for love, but will not recognize it.
Â
Do you realize that the ego must set you on a journey which cannot but lead
to a sense of futility and depression? To seek and not to find is hardly
joyous. Is this the promise you would keep? The Holy Spirit offers you
another promise, and one that will lead to joy. For his promise is always,
“Seek and you will find,” and under his guidance you cannot be defeated.
Â
His is the journey to accomplishment, and the goal he sets before you he
will give you. For he will never deceive God’s Son whom he loves with the
Love of the Father.
Â
You will undertake a journey because you are not at home in this world.
Â
And you will search for your home whether you realize where it is or not. If
you believe it is outside you the search will be futile, for you will be
seeking it where it is not. You do not remember how to look within for you
do not believe your home is there. Yet the Holy Spirit remembers it for you,
and he will guide you to your home because that is his mission. As he
fulfills his mission he will teach you yours, for your mission is the same as
his. By guiding your brothers home you are but following him.
Â
Behold the Guide your Father gave you, that you might learn you have
eternal life. For death is not your Father’s Will nor yours, and whatever is
true is the Will of the Father. You pay no price for life for that was given
you, but you do pay a price for death, and a very heavy one. If death is your
treasure, you will sell everything else to purchase it. And you will believe
that you have purchased it, because you have sold everything else. Yet you
cannot sell the Kingdom of Heaven. Your inheritance can neither be bought
nor sold. There can be no disinherited parts of the Sonship, for God is whole
and all his extensions are like him.
Â
The Atonement is not the price of your wholeness, but it is the price of your
awareness of your wholeness. For what you chose to “sell” had to be kept
for you, since you could not “buy” it back. Yet you must invest in it, not
with money but with spirit. For spirit is will, and will is the “price” of the
Kingdom. Your inheritance awaits only the recognition that you have been
redeemed. The Holy Spirit guides you into life eternal, but you must
relinquish your investment in death, or you will not see life though it is all
around you.